happy july

Yay today is July 1st which means my all-time fav holiday is just around the corner.  Apparently I express my love too frequently for the fourth of July because my co-worker surprised me with some red, white and blue flowers today.  It totally made my day (maybe my week)!  I can't wait to eat some watermelon, dress up in my fourth gear, dress Kash up in his fourth gear (I'm taking FULL advantage of this before the time comes when he puts up a fight) spending time with the fam, THE AWFUL WAFFLE!, fireworks and more.  Seriously it doesn't get better!

yuck

One thing I love about living in Denver is the climate.  The winters are never too harsh or cold, when it snows it melts within a day or two, and the summers are never too hot.  Well one thing I learned last year when the Dewey's came to visit us in the "Spring" is that March is the snowiest month in Colorado!  I had told them how nice and warm the weather was and had all these fun outdoor activies planned and then it was the blizzard of '09 their entire trip!

What the freak Colorado! Just as you get spring fever and you are ready to trade your sweaters in for capris here comes the snow.

This fine day in March is no exception.  It snowed 10+ inches last night.  I actually wouldn't mind all of the snow in March, but the fact that I was 99% sure I would have a snow day and didn't is what makes me mad.  I called my work's snowline seven times last night, praying each time that it would say we were closed today.  The best I got was a late start of 10am.  I guess I should be grateful that I got to sleep in...but instead I'm bitter that I'm here at work AND EVERYONE ELSE CALLED IN "SICK"!

And to top it off Blaine leaves for LA on business today and will be gone till Friday.  Mostly I just hate today and I'm a big time crabster!

back to work, back to work

Last night was reminiscent of the night before the first day of school. Blaine and I made sure clothes were laid out, the diaper bag was full of all the necessary supplies and we went to bed as early as our little boy would allow, knowing tomorrow would be a big day with an early start.

And we were right, 5:30am to be exact. Not because Kash woke us up, but because I now need a full two hours to get ready for work (and after the first run today found out that it would be helpful to make that about 2 and 1/2 hrs).

I groggily got myself outta bed, only hitting the snooze button once, a big accomplishment for me. I expected to be overwhelmed with emotions as soon as my feet hit the ground but at this point I was too tired to deal with my emotions. I started to put my make-up on...and the emotions started to show their face. I usually have my little man by my side, contently sitting in his bouncer watching me get ready for the day. Today all the lights were off and the house was quiet as my boys still slept. I finished getting ready and then I went in to wake Kash up to feed him before I left for work. In the previous six weeks this never happened, I encouraged our little boy to sleep in as long as he wanted! As I walked in to his nursery and said good morning I had a flash forward to what early morning seminary will be like as Kash stretched his arms out, grunted and looked at me through little slants in his eyes as if to say, "Oh mom just a few more minutes of sleep!"

The rest of the morning was rushed but not too rushed to block out the feelings of guilt, sadness and almost failure as a new mom as I got my little boy ready. He was looking his best for a fun filled day with grandma. Blaine put him in his car seat and Kash was all smiles, at least one of us was ready for our new adventure. But as soon as I saw that smile I lost it. I loved our mornings together, this is when he is the happiest. We would sing songs, read books, exchange smiles and just talk about nothing all morning long. I looked forward to this time everyday.


My mom had text me this morning saying to call her when I could, knowing today would be hard for me. I took her up on that offer on my way into work to distract myself from crying. She gave me a good pep talk and I felt like I could face the day. Then I came into work and my friend had decorated my desk and greeted me first thing. Followed by other coworkers saying how much they missed me. This helped a ton and made me feel way better
They even made me homemade chocolate chip cookies!!!
So all in all what was to be the worst day of my life has only been a kind of the worst day of my life. It's amazing how much I've grown to love our new baby and miss him when I'm not with him. He is so awesome and while today I felt kinda empty I know he's in the best hands ever and probably doesn't even realize I'm gone.

Thanks to all those who helped me get through today. Especially Blaine-you've been so awesome dealing with my emotional roller coaster, I couldn't do it without you! Here's to hoping each day will get easier and easier!

Sorry Kash is all I blog about these days, he's kinda stolen my heart and consumed my life!

40 weeks with child

I wasn't going to post any belly shots after 38 weeks, because frankly I feel disgusting right about now. But today a co-worker couldn't stop laughing at how big I looked and felt the need to snap this picture on my phone because "I just had to send it to my mom to show her how 'huge' I am!" Well I figured if it was entertaining to said co-worker that maybe you would enjoy it as well. Plus I'm hoping it will make me feel a little better post pregnancy when I'm sad that I still can't fit into my pre-prego jeans but grateful that I'm not this big!

So here I am in all my pregnant glory.

"You know your belly is big when YOUR boobs look small!"-again my lovely co-worker

3 more days right??!? haha, yeah sure!

longest week ever

actually working five days out of the week--check

being so excited to finally have work to do that I get it all done by Tuesday--check

bored out of my mind--check

playing wii at work to get through the day--check slash awesome!

I will woo the pants off of you!

Last year my work had all of the employees read a book called Strengths Finder (2.0) and then take a test to find our top strengths. This was to help us realize our strengths and how we can work with others to create the best working relationships. I found the book at the bottom of my desk today (looks like I really applied the book to my life) and had a good laugh all over again at my top strengths.

My top 5 strengths were/are:

1. Empathy

2. Woo

3. Positivity

4. Belief

4. Developer

I wasn't that surprised that empathy was my top "strength". I've always be in tune to peoples feelings and what is happening around me. But it was interesting to read further about empathy in the book and realize that this doesn't mean I always agree with or feel pity for every one's situation but I do understand it. I think that's very true.

But the strength I really had to laugh at was woo! What weird kind of strength is that??? I'm a wooer? As I read more about it I found that this was definitely a strength of mine, by the books definition. It says wooers enjoy the challenge of meeting new people and love strangers (yes I would say that apples to me). The books says wooers can use their strength to welcome people and make them feel comfortable, to easily charm and engage people, etc. So I guess it's a good strength, but still kinda funny. So I guess if I tell you I like your shirt, or your hair looks cute I'm just trying to win you over! Just kidding, I try and be genuine in my compliments.

What are your top five strengths? Take the quiz and find out! This isn't the actual Strengths Finder test, because you have to buy the book to take it...but it's pretty close. To log on to the quiz the username is strengths@finder.com and the password is strengths. The test is kinda long...but what else are you doing at work!

not as good as Dunder Mifflin but pretty close

Work parties are simply the best. They consist of your co-workers getting a little tipsy and sharing things they normaly wouldn't (or shouldn't), awkward conversations (with some) because you are fine friends at work but outside of the office what do you talk about and there's always one person in the group who makes you wear ridiculous things on your head. You also tend to be louder than normal because you are finally out of the office and you can finally let loose in front of your co-workers, this inevitably ends up pissing off the table next you.

The Irish Snug in Denver, an MHCD fave!Notice the stink eye we are getting for the man next to us?!